Giving birth took everything from me entirely. My soul created 2 new souls n I love the fact that it’s a real awakening but sometimes I feel on the passage, my soul got a lil lost. I’m lost and no one around me understands how everyday, I am slowly crumbling into dust that cannot be placed back the same way i was before. It’s inevitable it feels like. I stopped getting high everyday in hopes my mind would clear out a bit but I was wrong. It feels stuck. I feel stuck.
I always only come on here when things aren’t good and we’ll, here I am
He said, “I wanna start acting crazy like you, it’s kinda fun” n that really hurt. I dnt mean to act the way I do. I’m hurt. I’m embarrassed. I’m insecure bc he made me that way. I’m just a joke.
Im fucking tired of everything and everyone, if I had a gun id blast my brains out in front of everyone I love so they can finally hear me
Months worth of tears were drained out of me in one night. Deceived. Blinded by love. Love is too mean. He never loved me the way I claimed he did. I’ve become too desperate to feel, I let my guard down n trusted someone enough to see a side no one ever did. Good thing it was not all. Good thing I still could fall,
Back into me.